I used to be a programmer like you, until I took 1's and 0's to the knee.

Yerp, couldn't have come up with a better title for this blog but here you go so be still.

  I'm known amongst the Netizens that know of me, amongst friends and family that i'm an artist and digital designer. Though many (including myself ofc) remember a time where I was more of a programmer than an artist. Indeed, around 2019-2021 I was primarily a programmer and I was further going forward on the path on becoming more of an expert at the discipline.

    Though, most of my programming knowledge comes from the select languages of LUA, Javascript, HTLM & CSS. I was mostly a web-programmer but then received an intense interest in doing a lot more coding for source engine games, roblox & second life. I was on the path on becoming a full-time programmer almost leaving my more art directed internet career path more of a side thing to make way for this new found interest. I begun displaying myself as more of a programmer than an artist and people started viewing me as such.

  Though, even though I (believe it or not) enjoyed programming, having it be the only thing I was doing deprived me of a crucial thing I need in life...art. Art is my dopamine and it's my peace & comfort. Without it I begin to fall into depression and begin starting having an intesne hatred to myself.

  Unfortunately, programming was not the self-expression I wanted or what I wanted to look for. So I stopped.

 Wow, this blog has been anti-climatic so far. But this is my blog so shush.

 Most of my massive coding projects ended up being just working on my website and upgrading it (which ended up being a massive undertaking that took me a year). Especially working on the revamping project of my website which I'd rather write a second entry about.

  Any other coding projects were more small and involved coding in functionality for the weapons and models I would make for games. I didn't mind doing it on a micro scale but on a macro scale, I found coding to be quite miserable.

 This era is a nostalgic era for me, because a bulk of my programming projects came from winter of 2020 which was one of the best winters of my life.

 I remember coming home to my cozy bedroom from the snow with a delicious warm drink I got from the coffee shop called the "blue moon" which tasted like a blueberry crumpet only to resume my coding projects.

 It was also when I got my first espresso machine for Christmas and I was experimenting with all of these different coffee beans and coffee types, which really helped me get through and enjoy these projects most. I was also active in all of these programming communities where we shared wonderful ideas and where I met some really good friends.

 I'm writing about this because it's interesting to think about the alternate path I could have went on. It's also a very nostalgic era for me and is what gave me a bulk of my coding knowledge & wisdom. No, there is no deep reason why I stopped doing coding as a primary means on production, the only reasons for summary is that it couldn't replace art for me & I had no real long term ambitions. Even now, I want to get more into coding but sadly I lack any real idea that I feel like could benefit me or others. What can I make that hasn't already been made or that I have inspiration to make/recreate? Pretty much nothing.

 I'll leave it at this, my coding projects and practice will only be macro corelating to the things I make for games, but there will be no huge programming project coming from me anytime soon.